ohmygosh I cant believe I am finally done with this term, and I can finally sit down and properly blog.
over the past few weeks I have been living like nothing but zombie becuase of the heavy workload.
after the procrastination period, its the intensive nerd mode!
I havent been staying in my room for few weeks already, since I couldnt work on my own, I desperately needed someone beside me..
I really use every method to push myself to work.

practically I havent been sleeping and eating properly for over a week,
say binge eating (5 meals a day) and sleeping in the afternoon only (like babies' nap time)
my brain didnt even function properly at all and I almost fainted due to this extremely unhealthy lifestyle..
i literally feel no blood in my brain that I can faint at any minutes
basically no time and space to think about anything else but my bloody disso.
and I cant believe I have been sitting at the same spot for 6 days in a row apart from going to the toilet and the ocassion play-dead-on-bed (and showers of course)
it was tooooo memorable and I will never ever treat myself like this shit anymore..
I aged tooo fast becuase of that, really shouldnt push myself this hard
and seriously its my limit. thank god that I survive and no heart attack or whatsoever..

its okay to not sleep for a week, but its not okay to not sleep and keep using my brain and work.
its okay to have meals at the most inapproriate time of the day, but its not okay to eat something that have put in the room for too long and mix it together.
okay here's the crap i was talking about.
its disgusting!
but we finished it, how gross, we literally sic si lor


we were in short of water and this bottle has taken us 2 weeks to open it!
we tried all of our strength and use a knife to cut it,
nothing works


we gave up for few days
and yay finally I use my ultimate strength (put all of my anger and stress) to open it when I am not working on my essay.
the only distraction you see




the unwashed dishes, as we got no time and too lazy to wash them
at the end we dont even have a clean mug to drink coffee, which we desperate need it
so,

we made the coffee from the milk carton HAHHAHH
and we even make a hole for the straw :P




yea, I was living like a homeless.
okay after days of torturing myself writing essay, which has basically flattened my bum.
I still needa go to class, prepare for photoshoots, tutorial and this and that.
i mean no sleep and all and keep using my brain to brainstorm..
at the end of the day when we finished everything, we thought we can go celebrate.
but then we are THIS TIRED that we couldnt even bother to eat thou we havent been eating for days
THIS TIRED that dont even wanna talk
THIS TIRED that I wanna call my mom and cry like a baby to her

this is non sense! how come it seems like m taking the most intensive course in my uni?
I mean apart from the theories i still have to work on my pratical.
boo
and there you go the new born baby <3
too thick that I can even staple them
poor printer it's been exhausted

but then I hand in my first draft for my dissertation,
I din even ask someone to proofread for me..
hope I can get a reasonable mark for that, even thou I used few days to do few months worklaod
I wish
so yea actually m not a hard working person, m only hardworking when its last minute
but then i made this mircale happens! 10000 words in less than a week
 




anyway I know I deserve this crap life.
since I procrastinate quite alot =P


for examples I take random photos:
 

 








and I chat with the funniest mom on earth ever!

 






and here are some photos from the photoshoot
basically we used few hours to come out with the theme, hair and costume..
had 3 hours sleep before shoot, and 3 hours for everything
setting up, hair and makeup.
me and my baby Gemma was toooo rush for everything
I just improvised the 3 different hair style you know
We've got like not more than 15 mins to change hair, makeup and costume..
the point is, we're not professionals, we are just amateurs, but we needa act like one and be as effecient as we can be.
the photos below are taken by me but m just helping for my baby's shoot, m not the photographer
so I just sneak the moments since I was busy doing something else and no time to set my camera up
and I cant use flashlight so please dont judge.

First theme, nostalgia.
short hair look









Long hair curvy goddess look.
babe's wearing my clothes HAHA
these are by Neil since its the first set I wasnt able to get my camera yet.

 





The glam look.
I wish I have more time to do the hair..





Behind the scene





After shooting :D
fooling around in the green room
to have some fun out of the tense








we went to eat straight after the shoot but then we were too tired that couldnt even go back to our room.
we were even thinking to stay until the canteen close :P




















Oh and yes I did went to see Sakamoto.
its my first time going to a concert alone! and I utterly enjoy it cus he's uber cool.
I was sooo in love with him, the music master in this century <3
 




talking about relaxing and resting, which is all I need now.
Christmas is coming and I din even realise winter has already arrived.
finally get to go out and breathe some fresh air..
its getting really cold now, supposingly I am now in HK w/ my frens and family.
but this year, I wanna do something different with my life
so I left everyone behind, and spend time with new people and new places for this Xmas,
since it might be the only year that I can be away from my family and friends from home, thou I miss them too much
but I know what I want, and I want this
I wanna get away from all the usual parties from home..
I want some quality time with myself

snowflakes on my window




 







 

 




hope this holiday is going well and Switzerland next week!

will update more later xxx
with love.

Gees why do I have such a wide range of taste in music
I am just obsess with all these talented people..
I'm like spending fortune in purchasing tickets for concert
First Muse, now Ryuichi Sakamoto.
its 2 weeks till the deadline of my dissertation
but the concert is this weekend.
anyway I am going no matter what, I deserve to have a life,
I will just, work harder before then!




and the Cranberries and Etienne de Crecy
I will go see them someday I know
they all got aura in my eyes
share of my ride range of favourite music:






the Cranberries are performing again in London next March after 10 years.
okay I know m a lil bit geeky here.but hey theyre all good music!

According to my last entry
I DID spiced it up for the weekend and managed to loosen up abit :D

Firstly, I went to watch MUSE in London.
gosh everything is perfect and they sang all of my favourite songs! (including the new ones n old ones)
I literally loose my voice after the concert, too high :)
and they are just perfect, best band ever ever!





Okay, eventhou I was an hour late for the show
I could still relax for another hour in the lounge/suite with food before the show actually starts
typical concert rundown huh
its actually my first time to get to the vip level in concert but then its not as close to the stage comparing to the standing thou
anyway I hate being in the crowd (wouldnt be able to breathe), so I better step back a bit n look at it from a different angle.

 
our suite hasnt got much people hee, no crowd and crazy fans at all, love it!

 

my phone looks great in the dark :P
 











 







the show itself is actually better than the photos or video, hope you guys were all with me





I even got myself a Tee :D
its so not the usual me cus I always find tees and all the merchandising cheesy but this actually look really cool!






and recently, I've been really out of control, in terms of my living style
I havent been eating THIS MUCH since my puberty
m eating like a lunatic!
I just ate tooooo much fattening food, late night snacks,pizzas, tubs of icecream, packs of crisps, chips and everything, ALONE
gees how can actually I eat that much, guessed my stress has all gone to the food and m utterly shock when I think back how much I have eaten
this is actually my late dinner at 1am

Mom and Dad keep asking me to go on a diet and seems like they care about my appearance even more than myself.
oh whatever m not gonna be a celebrity anywway



oh and I was having absinth the green fairy shots last nite.
its 70% alcohol, awesome.
its my last year in college life, definitely have to spice it up :P









I miss playing pictionary with my girls.
so I might go back to HK for 2 weeks in Chinese New Year :)

boo.

 






























let me introduce the characters

Gemma the black widow



Min Hye the prison  breaker



Wenda (me) the psychic and Natsuko the Angelic evil





Haisang the crazy doll




Monica (middle) the grudge


Madge the clown X Chinese doll









more photos of the night






this is the moment when we saw Haisang bumping her head...


and she bleeds with a lot of blood.
Gosh how can you not love her?











second night of partying.
I was trying to be this stereotypical sexy secretary (cant see my whole outfit here thou)
I know what I need now, a pair of glasses!























I wish all of you guys have a happy halloween too =)









btw heres a side note, its late at night and I havent been eating dinner tonight so I have this Mackie's ice cream instead

and heres the describtion:
Luxury Dairy Ice Cream made with fresh whole milk, double cream and no artificial ingredients
and I want YOU to have it too cause its so good.
m not sure if they sell it in another country but then I would definitely make whoever comes to UK to have it! ;)

a quote from my readings, and I couldnt agree more

'We look to the expert, the connoisseur, the man or woman of konwledge- deep knowledge of the thing itself, and broad knowledge of the kind of thing it is and of other of its kind.
But experience not only deepens and broaden us: it also batters, scars, individualizes, and specializes us; experience is a provincialism of its own, seperating us from our fellow creatures....
while our ability to make that estimation correctly certainly increases in time with all our general and specific knowledge, it also decreases in time as we become less and less like anyone else and thus less able to predict anyone else's responses on the basis of our own.'


the reality of knowlege's just so sad isnt it?
its extremely hard to draw a balance in between.
its always good to be expertise in something, while at the same time, you'd be just less and less like others
at the end, who can you share with?




.experience.
snaps of my life in UK these days.
poker nights, hotpots, house parties, galleries, libraries, SCHOOL




























 



 





 















so freaking busy with school (!)